I love You

Wow..... WOW!!! Im am typing and deleting, typing and deleting. I cant really find the words to express the pain I just felt after reading your blog. Coker, I loved you from day one. I knew from the first time we kissed at Allen Pond Park, as it began to rain. I knew that day that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, But I was afraid. Afraid that I wouldnt be good enough for you, or that I had nothing to offer you. So i kept you close, but I was afrad to get to close because I knew the feelings I had for you. I started seeing other people because I didnt think that i would stand a chance with you and I couldnt face the pain if you had brushed me off again. It was a very cowardly move on my part that not only affected me, it affected you and an innocent bystander.

Im not going to front like I didnt love her, I did, but there was always something missing. I always felt like something in my life just wasn't quite right. I searched and searched, job after job, place after place, city after city, and I could never figure out what was missing; however, when you and I were together I always felt complete, like I could accomplish anything, like nothing was out of my grasp. so I kept you near, and I always wanted you near. I couldn't even then fathom living without you.

Woman, my best friend, love of my life, my wife to be, forgive me the pain that I have caused you. I vow to love you with everything in me for the rest of our lives. I dont deserve you, but God has forgiven and has given us both the desires of our heart and its pleasing to him. I have since apologized to the young lady as well, its actually kind of sad, but when I told her that we were getting married she said "You should have married her in the first place, considering when we met, you said that you wanted to" I have always wanted to marry you, I have always known that you are the perfect match for me.

I love you as deep as the atlantic ocean, I love you as high as the moon is to our optical ability with out a telescope, I love you as freely as the wind blows through the trees, I love you as strong as the tree planted by the stream, I love you as far as the very last moon on pluto is in distance from the earth, I love you as painfully as child birth, I love you as Christ have love the church. I love you with all of me, and I am privaledge to be the man of God in your life.

Proverbs 18:22

Love,

Ron Simms