The closer it gets, the harder it gets....

Truly the more the dream begins to become a reality, harder it seems to get. There always seems to be something that is standing in the way. However, this is different from the way my life typically works. Just to give a little perspective, here's how my life typically works. Whenever I try to do something that I am not suppose to be doing, in the process of doing so all Hell breaks loose in the area of the thing Im not suppose to be doing. (hopefully that made sense) but again, this is different.

I seems like the closer it gets the more of our individual self becomes exposed. There is a war going on in our members. Our hearts and spirits say deny self, deny self, but the mind is accustom to that which it is accustom and does not innately want to submit. Its almost like a disease, unless cured with the "right" medicine it will stay around forever and eventually you die.

Here is the good part. When you realize that the struggle is denying yourself, that means that what you are doing is the right thing to do. there is a song called the sound of victory and Though my sweetheart is not particularly fond of the arrangements and harmonies, I, on the other hand, really appreciate the lyrics in the song. "The harder it gets, the harder I praise; The more intense, the more I praise; The louder it gets, the louder I praise, I know my victory is on the way"

The enemy does not like anything Holy, and the hardest part about this thing that we are working toward is denying self, rejecting our personal feelings for the benefits of the other, submitting to one another mind, body and will, and ultimately Submitting ourselves and our unit to God for He truely governs everything in our life.

So i declare, The Harder it gets, The HARDER I will press, The More intense the MORE Ill press. I will press toward the mark for the prize of the High calling in Christ Jesus! for He knows the plans he has for our lives. I rest assured that God will get the glory from this...

Acts 17:11

and to my suga, I love you, For real, Deeply!!

I welcome the challenge of denying myself, following Christ and becoming one flesh again with my own rib. though you were born first, its clear the we were created from the same spirit, and every part of you fits perfectly with every part of me.

God does not make mistakes! He is perfect in everything and does all things well!