Quickly...

"I am going to groom you quickly to do the things i have for you to do" Wow, I thought to myself. He is grooming! everyday i feel more and more of the Immature falling off, he is making me bolder in him, more assertive, less tolerable of foolishness, and more aware of the things and people around me. The past few days, even in the last week, he has been putting people in my path to pray for, minister to, share wisdom with, and so much more.

For a while, resented the last few years of my life. I wondered why I had to go through all the hell that I went through. divorce, living back home with mom, moving from job to job, with no hope of stability, lonliness, depression, malice, jealousy, anger, failed attempted relationshps, short on money reckless living. I hated all that I had gone through and wanted nothing more but for this 2011 year to be over.

Then, He reminded me that this year was a year of great trial and test, to be a testimony for the gospel of Christ in my life. What better way to share the gospel than from personal experience. This year was the year that I was reconciled to him. This was the year of the lords grace and mercy over my life. This was a year where I learned that me minus Christ equals nothing. This was the year that made me challenge my faith and move forward.

Earlier in the year, back in January, Yvonne invited me to church. Thats when I met Bishop and the rest of the family for the first time. After a very heart felt word he preached, I went and got in the prayer line, and before he prayed for me, he asked "What is your commitment to Christ" not what I was expecting to hear. I went into the line, seeking a word from the lord and I got this, but little did I know, that this year was governed on the principle. What was my commitment to Christ. Had I truly forsaken everything and trusted in Him? Then I stopped going to that church.

Later in the year God allowed a series of events to happen that caused me again to question, What is my commitment to Christ. Then I made up in my mind that regardless of the circumstance, regardless of me that i would serve Christ.

I realize now, that all I went through, was to prepare me for this moment. my trials are going to bring someone else close to Christ. My life is God is changing my irrtable heart and giving me a heart for the people. God!! Father, dad I know that only you can be responsible for this, because you and I both know I never really liked people that much. Wow!!

God has called me to intercede on behalf of the people. Your people are hurting, Your people are suffering, Your people and discouraged and I am here to show them You oh lord. Use me, I dont want to let you down, so please move me out of the way oh God.

I thank you for your mercy and grace!!!
I bless you Father, because you are worthy!
I am honoured to server you!
Thank You!

Move by your spirit in my life, ontinue to groom me.

Amen!