You can really see the love. I want to post it everywhere.

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Father

Lately I have been praying a lot about bring glory to your name. In doing so you have shown me a lot of my ways and myself. Father I all I want to do is be pleasing to you. To bring honor to you and to bring glory to your name. I don't want to hinder anyone from calling on you. I don't want to do anything that is dishonorable in your sight. I want to be righteous and holy before you a holy God. To be honest, in the beginning I wanted to get married because I loved Yvonne and I wanted to spend my life with her. I wanted to have long lasting Godly companionship. However, somewhere along the lines we allowed the enemy to come in and deceive us. Then we went from simply long lasting Godly relationship to fornication. Which in turn turned our desire to be married into God I don't want to be in sin. I want to be able to make love to the person I love without guilt. How many of us know that that is wrong. Before we got to the one year count down you gave us some instruction to follow. We followed partially and still left us feeling guilty. It wasn't until convocation that I really saw what was happening. Bishop Vaughn said that the devil knows that he can't stop the will of God over our lives so he gets in there with you and have you do it wrong. We allowed the enemy to come in and pervert the gift that you had given us. Each other. Then we refrained. However we would still make out in the car like teenagers. How many of us know that that to is unacceptable. Then my developing prayer life begin to grow more and more intense. You started to speak to me and give me power and wisdom. My mind has shifted. My thoughts are different about marriage and about my life as a whole. My focus has shifted from pleasing myself to pleasing you. Father here is my reason for wanting to be married. Throughout my life I have known you and known of you. You have kept me through many trials and tribulations, many storms and many test. Many ups and many downs. I have perverted my body I have done all sorts of evil in your sight. I have defiled my temple with strong drink, women and masturbation. I have defiled women though never disrespectful I still took advantage of their virtue that was created for there husband's. Father I have done all sorts of things that you hate. I've even stolen the virtue of the woman you promised to be my wife. First I want to apologize for my selfishness and my ignorance. The reason I would like to be married is to restore the honor.that you have placed in me to bring you glory. I'm grateful for all that you have done and have been to me and to show my gratitude I want to bring honor to you. To live holy and acceptable to you. To live righteous. I love Yvonne lord and you have given her as a gift to me. I will never defile her again. I will protect her virtue I will protect her spirit and I will protect her mind. Through the means in which you have given me. For all the wrong I have done my king let me do 100 times more right. Let me be 100 times more righteous than before. Through my marriage give me the opportunity to prove my faithfulness to you. I believe what you say and I take it to heart. Now avenge all of our disobedience now that our obedience is fulfilled. I surrender this courtship, the wedding, the honeymoon and the reception as vessels to bring you honor. Let your holy spirit keep me and endow me with all wisdom and knowledge. Father of I don't keep my word to you in this vow. Please do as you have said and kill me so that I do not contaminate anyone else. It's time out for foolishness I am more serious about you lord then I've ever been. Thank you for your word of you are cleaning us up mad preparing us for you glory. Do Lord. Do it.

The Lord Our GOD is One

I had the craziest dream last night....

My family and I were looking for someone to save our family. Then someone had a baby. Crazy part was when the baby was born. Everybody kept saying he is a son.. "Jesse said that he found the one. come look Jesse said he found the one". But when we all got there we were on the steps of the church (STWC) the baby was dark skin and had two teeth. When I picked him up he started crying. I held him and he was crying and crying. Then as I was about to give him back I looked at him and he stopped crying. Then he looked at me and said "God bless you" I said what that boy say then he said it again "God bless you" so Im asking everyone, "does anybody else here this. so I started passing him around and everyone who's hand I put him in he said "God bless you" but I seemed to be the only one astonished by what the baby saying, or that the baby was talking.

28 years later, I looked at the baby and it was that I was looking in a mirror. The baby was indeed me. later as Im walking around the house I go outside and I end up in this car. The windows are broken out and there is this white guys really shabby with long dirty blond hair and he was offering me something. Im not sure what it was, but I got out of the car in fear. Then the spirit of the lord came upon me and I started to bind the up satan, and the guy started to run, but I begin to chase him. You can see him begin to get frustrated. Then he looked at me and I said. "The Lord Our GOD is One, there is no one like him, there none beside him but the Lord our God is one, so get behind me satan and flee.

So the white guy went into the crack of this shabby house that we next door to the house I lived in. As I started back into the house, the white man turned into a black woman and she said about how much does it pay and I said about eighty thousand and said oh I need that. Give it to me. I walked away from her and went into the house but she followed me in and when I went in, we were in my mothers house and mikala was standing in the middle of the floor and she looked at kala and said "hi kala" but the voice changed a little bit, and I grabbed kala by the hand and said come here lala and my mom said "whats going on" and the girl said "I asked him for..." but before she could finish the spirit of the lord came upon me again and I grabbed her by the arm and took her into the living room and I said "What did I just say to you?" she tried to speak and I called her name and silenced her. I said "Francis Jones, shut up" then I looked her in her eye and said what did I just say to you and satan spoke through her angrily "The lord our GOD is One". Then I woke up.

I got up and prayed for a little bit. Speak lord for your servant hears. God is calling me to another place in Him... He is going to use me to save my family. To be a light to them and draw them to Himself. Letting them know that He is God and that there is none like Him. My prayers will protect them and keep them safe. He is going to establish on a rock that is higher than I and He will lead me in all my ways. He will guide me and protect me as I war against the enemy. Fear not for He is with me. He makes strong. I will be strong in the lord, for He is my help and my salvation. Even when the enemy disguises himself the spirit of the Lord will come upon me and I will discern the enemy and fight against him and triumph. There will not be one who can stand against me for the lord fights for me. He will establish me with wisdom.. wisdom for everyday life. Seek the lord, while he may be found. do not cease from seeking His face. Ask His council of all things for the Lord directs my path in all things.

Thank you father for all that you are, and thank you for your word! I love you.
amen!

Ron, where are you?

A question I heard the Holy Spirit ask me about three times last night. I wasn't sure why I kept hearing that and as always my mind started to rule it out. "Oh, you're talking to yourself.... You know where you are... Why am I thinking about this?" all the things my mind said each time I heard, Ron, where are you. It wasn't until I got home I realized it was the Holy Spirit. I got in my apartment, went up stairs and could not enter my room. I was so convicted. I could not enter my room. My room is the place where I meet God every night between 10:30p and 12:00am (depending on when I get home) Its gotten to the point of even if I'm dead tired,  cant go to sleep without talking to God. So at this point I'm at the door pleading and asking for forgiveness. I get in and I pray then go to sleep.

It wasn't until tonight that I really understood the fact that God meets me in my room between those times EVERY night. Its like He expects me to be there to commune with Him. The funny thing is, He doesn't require much time, just 30 minutes with my phone on silent so that there are no interruptions. As I was driving home tonight I started to  think about how gracious God is and how much He really accepts from us, and all that He has done just to have a relationship with man. His creation. Its amazing how we expect God to jump through hoops just to have a relationship with us and that feeling is not reciprocated. It broke my heart. Not sin. I am always apologetic for sin because I know its wrong, but not showing God how grateful I am for all He has been for me. Once I realized, it broke my heart.

He only asked me for thirty (30) minutes at the end of my day. So that means that He kept me all day long, and allowed me to be successful in my daily activities and did not require me to get up early as most people would have you to think is correct. He let me choose the time and He meets me, and sadly there have been times where I complained silently about that because He wont let me sleep without meeting Him. "What am I that He is mindful of me?..." this scripture has never been more personal than today.

So tonight during my meeting with Him I wept as He came in. I know when He shows up because my prayer gets stronger, my utterance changes, I sing in a way only He understands and is pleasing to Him. But I wept, and I expressed my extreme gratitude to Him for all that He has been to me.

We are not perfect yet, but the worst thing we can do is neglect spending time with our Father who is in heaven and come to visit us and speaks to us and keeps us in all our ways. To me that's worst than sin, at least sin has a motive, not spending time with God that's just crazy. I have found that there is truly nothing like the presence of the Lord and when you know He's there and listening. Sometimes we just need God to Listen to the things we think that no body understands.

Man, He is so great! Who is like unto our God? NO ONE!!!!

anyway, I'm going to sleep before I end up writing a book.

Night!

This Storm (literal not figurative)

Man oh man, this storm has got me... "It got me, I aint have no shoes or nothing Jesus" lol but no seriously, this storm has got me.. Its got me feeling some kind of way. Its making me want to.... write.

My Lord: Marvelous

Oh how beautiful are the works of your hands oh lord.
How marvelous are your ways.
How excellent is your splendor Lord.
Oh king, and ancient of days.
For even in the midst of the storm, my Lord you give me peace.
despite the thunder from west, and lightening from the east.
How magnificent are you words dear king none shall return back void
how beautiful does your ways yet seem so ill make a joyful noise.
 Hallelujah hallelujah is the highest praise
the storm will past, the rain will cease, the winds will stop now bless your Holy name
no explanation needed father how marvelous are your ways
creation longs to give you praise oh ancient of days.

To My Wife,

 My dear, my dear how I long to hold you close
 to rest your head upon my chest and gently kiss you on the nose
my love my dear my heart is near though we are far away
but soon and near our love appear and here it is to stay
but to hold you in my arms my love i long to do and sing
to finally make love to you and it be pleasing to our King
but until then my sweet my sweet your virtue I will uphold
and pray that when temptation comes I have the strength to just say no
You are my wife, my queen, my love, my spouse and love to be
as much as you are part of me you're much more to our king
but one day, oh one day we will be pleasing and all will sing
the heavens, the earth, our hearts our king, because we will be guilt free
however my love for now I will just hold you in my dreams
just make sure you're there to say "I do" in June two thousand thirteen.


 To Judah Immanuel,

 Hello young man, prophet of God your life has a great call
to preach the word unto the world and introduce Christ to them all
I have not been the best stewards over what I have right now
but I promise son, my prince, my seed for you ill lay my life down
I promise that I wont curse you or bring destruction to your offspring,
so pray for your father while your in Christ arms I don't mishandle the offering
You have not yet been conceived or even thought about until now
you will be a king oh prophet of God ill teach you to get your crown
according to our Lord in heaven, we are of royal priest
so remember to stay humble my son, and thats to say the least
Make sure that you respect your mother and treat her like a queen
which im sure will be easy for you because you'll act out what you've seen
I love you Judah Immanuel (Praise God with Us)
make a joyful noise when you get here son until then my prince be blessed

I miss you!

I miss you sweetheart, but I assure you that I have learned so much this week. I learned about Christ, what He did and how it relates to me. I also learned a lot about who I am in Christ and that's what I needed. So thank God for this time. I am patiently and waiting for Sunday. I love you and I am excited to spend the rest of my life with you.

The devil Tried to Kill Me, BUT GOD!!!

The ride home from work today was a rather different one indeed. I took the route that I normally take and thought everything was all good. I get to a busy intersection so i decrease in speed. After all, there were two huge trucks that no one could see anything around. so cautiously after the cars had passed I proceed while blowing my horn just in case and out of nowhere BAM!!! She hit my car. Gwenn was her name. She was driving a small white civic so she too could not see past the mountains of trucks. So BAM!! She hit my car. Never being the driver in an accident before I was a little shook up. The impact was great enough to deploy my airbags and turn my car off. It broke my coolant pump and destroyed her right headlight. Some dents and dings on the cars but we both came out well. Rewinding a little. On my lunch break I went to sit in my car and pray, just as I have been doing all week, and it has really been working on me. I am glad that when I almost ignored the Holy Spirit when He told me to go pray. I could not resist. So I went to my car and prayed. good thing I did or God knows how I would have reacted after she hit me. while a little shaken up, I got out of the car because it was hard for me to breathe with the smoke from the airbags. I walk around to check on the driver and I get to the window, and its a terrified and shaken up Arcadia University student on her way to class. I ask "are you ok?" terrified she looks at me and says "oh my god i am so sorry, was that my fault?" I smiled and said yes but its ok, lets get you out of the car on to the side of the road so we can make sure you're ok. So shaken up, and still startled she could not even put her thoughts together. So I directed her to put her car in park, turn off the ignition, put on her hazards, and step out of the car. It took her a while to get calm even after me telling her that it was going to be ok. We call the police and when they arrive im talking to my insurance company, who is going to take care of this thank God, and he starts asking us questions. As I finished with the insurance company I come over and again am friendly and consoling to the young lady because the cop was just so uptight. After I told them that this was my first accident ever, she said "wow, you are so calm for this to have been your first accident" I said "trust me, I have been in some pretty foul situations, and God spared our lives and we both got out with no injuries. Im grateful for that. God makes me this calm." she then said "you are so nice" and I said, "it is Jesus Christ who makes me this nice." and she said "well He's doing a good job." After we exchanged policy info and the police officer was in his car filing the report. we talked a little more. I asked where she was going and if she was going to be late and she told me she was going to class at Arcadia, but lived in south Philly. I said nice, thats where my fiancee lives(I miss you very much BTW). shortly afterward, the Police officer gives us the report info and sends us on our way. While driving home I had a vision of how that accident should have turned out. ...I was driving and the way she hit my car and the impact of the collision should have flipped my car, but I thank God for His grace towards me and His steady protection. But I am most grateful that not only was the young lady ok, but that I was able to be an example of Christ likeness to her. God I thank you for an opportunity to bare your name. Now let when she goes to wherever she may go, she will be able to say that you not only saved her life and mine, but that you are merciful and kind and your spirit causes people to be merciful and kind. I thank you for your grace and mercy and I pray that you protect Gwen and that the seed of Christ you allowed me to sow through my actions and my testimony of Him, may be watered and grow into something amazing and ultimately her salvation. I love you Father, and I thank you, you do all things well. I should have lost my life today, but you saw fit to let me live and proclaim you glory. I am grateful. Amen!

12:41 am

As I quietly sit in my bed wide awake, I can feel the breeze blowing gently through my window. Circulated by the ceiling fan, the breeze can be felt through my entire room. A lot on my mind tonight. When I got in the house from leaving Yvonne's, I felt an urgent need to pray & worship. Worship & pray. Before leaving church, I had a little talk with Pastor Jeff about the prospect of being married. I told him that I was excited! I am excited. Pastor always has something encouraging to say. He said, "Man I love marriage. It was the second best thing I ever did in my life, the first was dedicating my life to christ, and the second was marrying joy." I expressed to him how I felt about his words he spoke to me a few months back about being ready to die. He said, "You have to die daily. In marriage somebody has to die and because you are the head its going to be you."

I reply boldly and firmly, "IM READY TO DIE!" I am finally ready to lay my life aside to please God. I am no longer in love with myself, but I am willing to do ANYTHING to please God. If it please God that I prosper, be it unto me. If it please God that I suffer, be it unto me. If it please God that we marry, be it unto me. If it please God for me to never marry again, be it unto me. I am persuaded that nothing shall separate me from the love of Christ!

God I thank you for all you have been in my life. I thank you for all that you have allowed to happen to & for me. I am alive and I have health in my body, food in my fridge, clothes on my back, a car, gas in my car, peace in my mind, exceeding joy! GOD I THANK YOU! I thank you for your will, I thank you that you are perfect in all your ways and there is noe that can compare to you.

I thank you for your grace and your mercy. I thank you for new life when I know that I should be dead, but you give me life more abundantly. I am not rich or balling out of control yet but i thank you that I have all of my needs met. I am ok with whatever you word says about me. I AM CONTENT WHATSOEVER STATE I AM IN. No matter what! I declare and decree that right now no more will I nor my wife to be, be bound by what we "think" we know about God or oursleves. Our knowledge and rationale is foolishness to God.

Selah,


My love, My wife, My best friend I have read your blog, initially I wanted to feel hurt but I could not and it was because of the pray of submission I Prayed when I got home. I have one thing to say... you are not an apostate you are in a war, and right where God needs you to be. learn how to trust in Him and lean not to your own understanding, its foolishness to God. You dont know anything! We have to fight for the faith. The Holy Spirit told me that the enemy wants to take you out before we get married,the reason the enemy is fighting us so hard is because he knows that once you have a covering, he is not going to be able to burden or stricken you with those things of the past.

One day while sitting at church, I had a vision of us getting married. We got married at the church and God was officiating it through Bishop. Relieved that the day had finally come we both were standing and it you could see that we had gone through somethings getting there. However, after we said "I do" God said, "what I have called together let man put asunder, you may kiss your bride" when I lifted the vail off your face, I wiped away your tears and proceeded to kiss you. When we locked lips, the shell had broken, all the hurt, all the pain, the strife, the broken promises, spirits of depression, envy, coveting and doubt were broken and lifted off of you and I and we had liberty in Christ. Our marriage is to destroy yokes, The anointing is on us, and the power is in us and His glory is to be made manifest through it. Look what the Lord has done.

We have 14 months to go! not everyday will be a fight, but being led of the spirit I told you when we first started talking about it that it would be a fight and the enemy was going to attack, and it started as soon as we started marriage counseling. but WE WIN!!! We already have the victory, but we have to prove that we can stand. Greater is He that is in us, than he that is in this world.

Father keep us, mold us protect us hide us in your wing. God please dont put us on ther shelf, but equip us to stand against the enemy. We bind satan in Jesus name.

thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven, for Thine is the Kingdom, Thine is the power and Thine is the Glory forever amen.

Nevertheless, not my will but your will be done.

What a day its has been.

Man oh man, what a day! Starts out pretty crapy from waking up. Then I call my dad and he has nothing constructive to say. "manipulate the situation so that it works out for you at the end of the day, thats what Im doing and have been doing for 15 years" Ok pop, please Im trying to be happy not in no foolishness. So that kinnnd of pissed me off a little, but I let it slide. I went to the barber shop for a little bit got a cut then headed home for noon day prayer. After prayer I got myself together to head for work. I get downstairs and out the door, and guess what, My car has been broken into.

Stolen, my laptop bag with all my study stuff in it. Man what a day it has been. to top that my insurence doesnt cover it.... WOWWWWWW I thought. so I cleaned it up and called the dealer and they recommended someone for me. so that taken care of.

Man, there is a war going on in the heavenly's and something GREAT is about to happen. I curious to see what will be the next move.

and to the most important "person" in my life, I love you! I know that we have no clue what we are doing as far this wedding or being married but all will be well, trust God, He will lead us, guide us and protect us. Bless His holy name.

I love you my love, lets see what the father has in store for us.

For I had fainted, if had not believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. 27:13

3/27/12 3:50am

I sit in my bed wide awake after just finishing a conversation with my intendent. Wondering why, I am tired but I cant go back to sleep. I got up, went and layed back down...


My mind is wandering all over the place, and I can not seem to get it to subside....

There are a lot of thoughts running, a lot of ideas running, a lot of.....

I am.....

I....

lord....

whats the next move?

Nevertheless, not my will Lord, but Your will be done. Im going to sleep now.

3:38am

.... First and formost why am I up? i defnitely went to bed around 10ish. I mean I was out like light. I lay here trying to go back to sleep but Im legit wide awake. hmmm I wonder, maybe God wants to tell me something.

"Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.” James 1:12

This is the scripture for today. hmmmm, let me go, I shall return after I have communed with the lord.

The closer it gets, the harder it gets....

Truly the more the dream begins to become a reality, harder it seems to get. There always seems to be something that is standing in the way. However, this is different from the way my life typically works. Just to give a little perspective, here's how my life typically works. Whenever I try to do something that I am not suppose to be doing, in the process of doing so all Hell breaks loose in the area of the thing Im not suppose to be doing. (hopefully that made sense) but again, this is different.

I seems like the closer it gets the more of our individual self becomes exposed. There is a war going on in our members. Our hearts and spirits say deny self, deny self, but the mind is accustom to that which it is accustom and does not innately want to submit. Its almost like a disease, unless cured with the "right" medicine it will stay around forever and eventually you die.

Here is the good part. When you realize that the struggle is denying yourself, that means that what you are doing is the right thing to do. there is a song called the sound of victory and Though my sweetheart is not particularly fond of the arrangements and harmonies, I, on the other hand, really appreciate the lyrics in the song. "The harder it gets, the harder I praise; The more intense, the more I praise; The louder it gets, the louder I praise, I know my victory is on the way"

The enemy does not like anything Holy, and the hardest part about this thing that we are working toward is denying self, rejecting our personal feelings for the benefits of the other, submitting to one another mind, body and will, and ultimately Submitting ourselves and our unit to God for He truely governs everything in our life.

So i declare, The Harder it gets, The HARDER I will press, The More intense the MORE Ill press. I will press toward the mark for the prize of the High calling in Christ Jesus! for He knows the plans he has for our lives. I rest assured that God will get the glory from this...

Acts 17:11

and to my suga, I love you, For real, Deeply!!

I welcome the challenge of denying myself, following Christ and becoming one flesh again with my own rib. though you were born first, its clear the we were created from the same spirit, and every part of you fits perfectly with every part of me.

God does not make mistakes! He is perfect in everything and does all things well!

Aside from the silly part of this, this video explains the way I feel. I love you!

The prettiest thing I've ever seen

...... Is a Holy Ghost Girl. Man I think Canton Jones was on to something. There is nothing more attractive than a woman who loves the Lord. Someone who is not perfect, but acknowledges their imperfections, repents and desires to be better. Standard! I love it. Its so beautiful when you encourage me to be better. Not just for you but because I need to be better.

God I thank you for my Holy Ghost woman.

I appreciate everything that you are doing through her. Continue to prune us God, work on us so that we can be pleasing to you. Equip us to carry your glory.

Selah...

Blessed be the name of the Lord

Praise God from whom, life flows! More than just blessings more than just meeting our need, but praise be to the God that lives, and is flowing through us because he is everything! God, while I am so grateful and thankful for all that you have done in my life, I would just like to take time and say thank you for being God! Im thankful that there is none lke you in all existence or creation. You are the one true and living God and are deserving of so much more than what we can even think about giving. Lord, I dont come tonight seeking your hand, but to thank you for who you are. You Are! its that simple, You cause the sun to rise in China as it sets here in the US. You cause the solar system to line up strategically so that so that everything works in harmony. God You are simply amazing. I cannot even begin to understand your ways, but oh God of Jacob, I ask you (just as solomon did) for wisdom. I pray for not only your wisdom, but for your devine understand. Lead me, and I will follow, teach me and I will understand, Be my God and I will be your servent. Oh God of Israel, use me to reconcile your creation back to you. Nothing else matters except Christ crucified. Now, father who is in heaven, Holy is your name, Your Kingdom Come, Your will be, On the earth as it is in heaven! God I Love You SO much! and I thank You for who You are!

Music...

Your voice is like music to my ears. When you talk to me or read to me my heart smile's. Your smile is the sunshine that brightens my day. No matter how dim it may be I know that I can count on your smile to remind me of the Joy that the Lord has given us. You eyes pierce through the very meat of who am. All my life I tried to hide the real me, but you always saw right through it. Your hair embodies the strength and ferver of natural beauty. Your hands are ministering, they work to create and produce whatever they touch to its highest quality. You Are Woman! Woman of God! My Soon to be Wife! My best Friend! and I love you! You are like music to my ears, a soft melodic sound that is played in the midst of all thats going on but when heard everything else stops to give notice and pay hommage to.. that.. sound! sing aloud for me woman of God and I gladly listen to every motion, every sound, ever silent, every loud and every unspoken, every whisper, every gasp, every sigh, every smile, every frown, every side eye, every intent look I.. Am.. Listening... To the spirit, to our father, to Our Bishop, to the guidence, to the correction, to the training, to blessing, to the joy. Sing to me Woman of God and I will listen you are the perfect harmony for who I am and God Knew it. He does all things well!

Woman of God

I can not begin to express the extreme gratitude that I have to the Father for allowing us to share and minister to each other. I am so thankful that though our lives have taken us many different places, that God through Christ has led us back to each other. How much more perfect could that place be than the house of God. He used you to keep me leveled and to bring me back into his house. He used you to see through my non-sense "no matter how nice it may have sounded" you always made sure I knew that "I" wasnt enough, that I needed Him. I distinctly remember writing a fb status, something about beauty of women, or something like that; and you said "Ron you need a wife. Now considering all I had been through I just wrote it off.
However, that was true. I do need a wife. Someone who is In love with God, striving for holiness, and who can keep me grounded. Someone who I dont have to tell, but she knows just what to do. Someone who knows how to pray when the going gets tough. Someone who is willing to stick with me through the thick and the thin, good and bad, ups and downs etc. Woman of God, that someone is you. It pleased the father that you and I build, and that we grow into covenant with each other. I am excited that he is allowing us to be together. I love you so much and for a very long time. I pray that the lord bless you and keep you. Now unto Him that is able to keep us from falling and present us blameless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, be majesty, honor, dominion and power. for ever. Amen!

I thank God for your life, I pray that we Keep God first. Period! I love you my Woman of God!

Saturday Night

Well, its Saturday night and I am in the house! However, today has been probably one of the most relaxing days I have had all year. In preparation of writing my sales manual, I think I may have read so many articles its not even funny. I have also started some personal reading of my own. The first article that I read was the "7 Virtues of a Godly Husband." Awesome article and I have just started a book today called "The Complete Husband" So far so good, I have to keep reading.... Funny thing is, in all my readings on becoming a "Godly husband" they all seem to say the same thing and the first thing is to seek God first, love God first, submitt to God first, then do the same for your wife. Wow, why was I never taught this stuff. Im learning that God want us to be completely submitted to him, and do what he has for us to do and then will he bless your marriage.

That said, we have to die daily! As the man, the priest of the house, the enemy is constantly buffeting and bringing attacks against him, so we have to be led soley by the spirit of the living God that lives with in us. For the enemy know that if you can bind the strong man (The head of the house) that he can take the family. I learning to be led of the spirit. I have also learned that nothing is perfect. However, we have to be willing to put ourselves aside and consider how we treat each other. How I treat my wife is a reflection of my relationship with God. Ephesians declares that a man is to love his wife the way that Christ love the church.

I learned that premarital sex is a NO NO. Now, Ive known this for quite some time, but had still found myself in positions where i have fallen; however, only because i put myself there. Paul said that "there is no temptation that is common to man, but for every temptation God has provided a way of escape." 1 Corinthians 10:13 knowing this, I was still unsure of why I still allowed myself to fall. I found that answer today. Quite simple really, Its because people have never really put it into any other perspective execept "If you fornicate your going to hell if you dont stop." While that is true, when dealing with mankind, we need more than that, and I got it today. Marcos Mercado, host of "Marriage Beyound the Vows," suggest that God Created Sex for a marriage because sex is the only way for you to completely give yourself to another human being. It was not meant for the exploitation of the act. Thus you incur "Soul-ties." Wow, I thought to myself. I have to love you enough to say NO, not until we are married.

As the man, the High priest, the head of the house, the covering, the protector, the leader etc, I am held responsible if my house is not in order. However, I also learned that you cant just do whatever you want and expect God to bless or sanction your marriage. "If the house is built on faulty ground, you have to tear the whole thing down and start over again So that God can be pleased."-- Marcos Mercado

God is grooming me, I am doing things that I have never done befor, considering things that I have never considered befor. He is preparing me for ministry. Ministry to his people, ministry in my home and ministry to my soon to be wife. I thank God for Bishop and all the pastors at the church. Everytime im around them i learn something different.

Father, my prayer is, now that I am gaining knowledge and understanding (Finally some clear understanding about how to be a "Godly" man all together) that the immediate next step is application. For wisdom and knowledge unapplied, is a waste of preacious and valuable information. I thank you for your grooming, your training, your conversion process. I know that this is going to be the most exciting journey of my life, and I welcome it with arms wide open. I praise you and thank you in advance, and I submitt my all to you Jesus, mind, body and soul. I love you in Jesus name, Amen!

This dream,

Wow, I had a dream this morning. After prayer i layed back down because i didnt have class until 10:15 today. When I closed my eyes and nestled myself into my pillows. my mind started to wander. I dreamt that we were siting in a restaraunt with some farly mature people, not old, just older than us. We laughed and danced and I kissed you gentely. Then we continued to converse (Conversate if you hood lol) with the rest of the people. As we were preparing to leave a lady got my attention. "Come here" she said. So I went. She asked "Is that your wife?" I replied "Yes ma'am." Then she said, "God has imparted to you two the gift of benevolence." I smiled and walked away. As we were talking--you and I-- everyone else contiunued their conversations and then I woke up.

Wow! Benevolence, not a word I use frequently, but im really curious as to what this dream means.


be·nev·o·lence
   [buh-nev-uh-luhns]

noun
1.
desire to do good to others; goodwill; charitableness: to be filled with benevolence toward one's fellow creatures.

2.
an act of kindness; a charitable gift.

Please hear

Lord!!!! Lord!!!! Hear the cry of your people. The world is groaning and trevailing, earnestly awaiting the manisfestation.... My heart crys out for your people. Not just the body, but for everyone. I can not for the life of me understand why all of a sudden my heart has been focused on the people, your creation... God I am humbled, Im Praying, and trying to understand.... the song writer says that "I will never truely understand your ways" but Your word says theses things are revealed to us by the holy spirit.

Lord!!! Lord!!!! Please Hear US.... as we reach out for you oh God, I need you!! Hear my heart oh God, feel my tears, wrap me in your arms, Father me God, Father me. I feel the shift, I feel the pruning, I feel the fire, Father dont take me out of it; rather, keep me while I am in the midst of it.

Strengthen my heart, strengthen by spirit, strengthen my body.

Father bishop profesied that you were want to use me to impart your spirit into the people, but to fear not. Do not be afraid to stand boldly and tell the world what God has done in my life. Amen!!

I feel you moving, So i will keep flowing in the move.

God, please, place a hedge of protection around my woman of God. Guard her mind, guard her ears, guard her eyes. Keep her in the midst of these fiery trials oh God, dont let enemy over take her she is your daughter first and the wife that you chose for me. Im sorry that we dis-obeyed, I take full responsbilty, and I ask for forgiveness and that you guid us the way that you want us to go, so that you can get the glory. God uplift her when shes feeling weak, Quicken her when she feel drained, cause the Holy Spirit to take over like on the day of pentecost. God you know that I love her, and more importantly you love her. Im not asking to remove the trial, Im just praying that she has peace during this season. Thank you lord for we call it done.

Ok as i can barely keep my eyes open, nor can I keep from physcally crying, I pray that.... Never the less, not my will but your will be done Oh God!

I love you Lord for who you are.

Amen!

2012

Wow!! we have finally made it in to 2012! "God has some GREAT things for you to do this year Ron, so get yourself prepaired" words from the profet of God on tonight after bible study. "Im ready!!" I replied. I am ready for God to move so mightly in my life, that things change as soon as I walk into the room. Yet, not I but Christ in me. For there is nothing good that can come from me in and of myself. All things come from thee oh Lord, and of thine own do I give to you. I am excited to see what God has in store for me this year and in the years to come. I always knew that there was a great call on my life, but for the first time I feel it actually coming to past. Selah, I must remember to give all thanks a praises to my Father in heaven for without him all that we do is now in vein. Now... Evangelism, God you did not give me the skills and the gift that I have just to make money, but to advance Your kingdom. Holy spirit lead and guide me into all truth, let my mind be like the mind of Christ Jesus our lord, let me decrease as You increase that man see you when looking at me. Move me out of the way so that people will be drawn to your kingdom, replace me with you oh lord and make me the example. Use my life as an example of the great things that You can do. I thank You for all that you are to me oh Lord, and I will for ever give your name the praise Amen!

In other news, Yvonne is considering quitting her job in the summer time. Wow! I admire her, she is going to let it all go so that she can be happy doing what she loves. Becoming her own boss, and not being restricted to the normal rite of passage for someone of her expertise. I take my hat off to you woman of God, and please know that no matter what, I got your back! Circumstances do not dictate the love that I have for you or the desire to you prosperous. Im your number one fan sweetheart and Im rooting for you.

2012 is going to be an Awesome Awesome year! Lets take full advantage of this year!

Peace and Love.